I have so much going on, that honestly, cancer should be in the background. Way Back.
But it’s not.
It’s always Right. There.
I am so very tired. And I’m trying to take care of my Mom, and my husband, and a much bigger house, and two cats, and a dog, and a job and and and….
I need more energy.
I need to not think about the fact that just two months ago I was having chemo and was still quite sick.
When won’t it be?
When will it be gone? When will I be able to be me again?
When will the hot flashes go away?
Because they have been horrible the past three weeks.
When will I have energy again?
Honestly, I have a feeling that no matter what, the threat of cancer and it’s effects on my body and my brain will always be..
But maybe, just maybe…at some point, Right There won’t quite be Right Here.
It will be Over There.
Or Back There.
Or even, perhaps, Over Yonder.